Luck Goddess

With all the hype abt LilianToo, I can’t help but wonder what all the hype is about. Especially come Chinese New Year when everyone is either writing or talking or reading about ”luck” factor!

Ms Lilian Too, a Harvard graduate and once a CEO of a banking group predicts that I will find true love this year of the Rooster. Apparently, the year of the rooster does not come favourable to the goats……but since I am an earth goat, I am to have a wonderful year in both career and love. I am suppose to meet MrRight. Now,here is the cliche: all it says is meet MrRight…..the fine prints cautions me to the fact that it only says that I will meet, but it did not specifically say that I will be together with MrRight!! Nothing can be more cliche!

To believe is so easy….or is it? Do I believe in Soulmates? In love?

This much I know is true: I do not know what love is.

What is love when the ppl around me are breaking apart? My parents got divorced….my friend’s uncle had an affair….an associate got a divorce three days ago and I found out that his now ex-wife is actually pregnant!! My initial reaction would be to put the blame on the associate (him being the guy and all guys are scums anyway). When I was told that his wife is pregnant, I thought that scumbag piece whom I call associate had an affair outside his marital bed of vows and forgoing all the responsibility of fatherhood and leaving his wife to die in this cruel world without any means of surviving. After discussing it with friends, the logical conclusion showed that my first deduction did not sit well with my associate’s character……he is a loving husband…moreover, he does not come across as a man who would shun his responsibility as a father……..perhaps she could be the one taking the bite at the forbidden fruit.

I should have more faith in him rather then jumping into a generalized conclusion….Which only goes to show that I have really lost all faith in men staying loyal. I am embittered by my father, by all my friend’s boyfriends, associates and so called urban legends!!

Where in God’s name is the logic of love? Will there ever be such a thing as true love till the day I die?

If you love me, will you hold my hand for the next fifty years when we cross the road? If you love me, will you promise to hold my hands for the next fifty years when we suanter amongst night peddlers for our weekly routine of eating at Pasar Malam? If you love me, will you hold me steadfastly as I feel the world come to an end when my family members are called to heaven? If you love me, will you promise not to inflict physical pain on me in the heat of discontentment? If you love me…..will you forever shelter me from passing cars as we cross the road?

Or do all this care and feeling of love passes you by as time passes you by? Would you cry for me for seven years after I am long gone? An old lady once told me she cried for her beloved husband for seven years….and will see him in heaven once her time is up. To love so is a joy…makes the world a lil less bleak.

Chocolate eclairs

It was a rather hot Saturday evening when my best friend decided to seal her heart to the one man whom is her world, her north pole and her FAITH. My bestfriend got engaged to her soulmate, Venu.

To you both wonderful person, whom I chanced upon, may your friendship and love build a wonderful relationship!

Like every auspicious occasion, almost inevitably nothing goes as planned. Venu was late. 5pm was the best time of the day to exchange vows but rue the day was the rain!

My bestfriend, a model of composure, told him to fret not for this is a special day belonging to them and only them, and whatever the time is, their love is strong enough to transcend superstitious calamity! So, he arrived an hour late...rather flabbergasted but settled in calmly amidst well wishes.

Then, he looked at her and I saw the love and proudness for the one girl who will complete his life. At that moment, she was the luckiest girl alive! To be loved by a man as he openly loves her is chocolate éclairs on earth….

He thinks she is the prettiest girl alive. He thinks she is sweet and he looks at her when she does not realize it….love twinkling in his eye!

Thank you for making me happy today! Thank you for giving me back a little of my idealist dreams…..thank you for showing me this: Perfection is not hope, hardwork nor perseverance…it is love like chocolate éclairs on earth….