New year…bloody ah bengs…

The mere mention of a new year and almost inevitably you will read or write or hear a friend or a foe surmise his or her year!!!

Shall I be any different? Nope…I m but a city girl, brought up to emulate every possible mass indoctrination!

So, where did 2004 go to?

Can’t really remember much of the year…since I didn’t:-

(1) get promoted;
(2) get laid; and
(3) didn’t get married…

come to think of it, I didn’t even loose a pound! Bugger!! Having said that, I am enormously happy. At the end of the day, that is all that matters, isn’t it?

However, I met him. Making this year a fairly interesting year, albeit liking him and hating him every other waking moment was one big shithole!

But I digress. "New"….everyone likes it. Be it a new dress, a new puppy, a new boyfriend, a new car or a new year! New always smell better, work better, taste better, look better…gleaming shiny unsullied. The same analogy applies to a new year.

I bid farewell to last year’s horrible work load schedule, the bastard who broke my heart (perhaps I didn’t really bid him farewell because I called him out for drinks the very next day – the bloody irony of this cheating heart of mine!!), the stupid weight machine that says I still weigh 60kg and ushered in a new year with greater expectations, new new year resolutions and expect things to look up …..

So this is how I sang farewell and welcome the new year.

Eve of a new year: Everyone in office was ready to party. No one wanted to work. Everyone was bugging everyone. Ready to flee as the clock tick towards four pm or so.

Met up for karaoke lunch with two friends. Never done one of this before but it sure was a novelty. Had fun though. Food in Red Box sucks but what the heck, we were there only for a chance to parade our singing ability…My guy friend can really sing. It was fun to just sit back and listen to some real talents karaok-ing to their heart’s content.

Then MrKaraoke dropped his bombshell….

MrKaraoke: Eh leleente, have I told you that I have a girlfriend?

Me (very happy and smiling away): Really?!!! That is fabulous

MrKaraoke: urmmmm ….i have know her for four years. She is a nice girl. And I have been alone for many years now. So, since I know that she likes me, we started a relationship.

Me (alarm and puzzled): eh?!! Are you telling me that you don’t like her but because you pity her, you are going out with her?

MrKaraoke: I was touched by her sweetness and her sincerity. I mean, she is a really homely and nice girl. When she was still my housemate, she will make a drink for me in the morning, take care of house chores and also wash my clothes. In this day and time, where can you find such girls?

Me (thinking: fuck fuck fuck!!!): You are kidding me!!!!

Sit back….completely taken aback by this new revelation and can’t help but pity the girl a tiny bit…but more importantly, prayed that this couple will iron things out and my friend might just happen to fall deeply in love with this sweet girl! He didn’t sound like it was merely a game and for that I gave him credit. He did mention that he will want to settle down in two years or so. So, I guess this is better than all my other friends who happen to like their gf from day one but can’t even discuss marriage without breaking down!!! So, I guess things will be ok after all.

Came back to work at three pm….finished off at seven-ish. Adjourned to a four star city hotel for pot luck dinner with friends. I made two new friends. Conversation flow was good. We talked about work, about the tsunami disaster (where everyone has an interesting close encounter story to tell) and life in general. I have never ever been a big fan of noise, so a sit down dinner away from city havoc, jam and idiotic ah beng loitering in the street was superb.

Went to meet my then-university-roommate at eleven-ish. This is where the nightmare begins. The same idiotic ah bengs loitering in the street were holdings cans of detergent aerosol sprays that were going for RM10 for 4 bottles…and they were spraying at practically everything within their sight. I was soooooo ready to utter foul language at them when my hair got soaked with horrible smelling detergent!!! The worst part was it also leaves a rather sticky feeling on your skin. Bloody asshole!!!! Can’t they do something more constructive? What has become of our young generations? If this is their idea of fun, then our country is not progressing intellectually in sync with economic prosperity!

Was stuck in city jam for an hour. Reached home at three. Whispered a thank you note to God almighty for He has given me the very best things in life: my life.

New year 2005!

I missed him terribly. Decided that I needed to at least incorporate him in my "new year better life" resolution.

Ingeniously told him that my roommate and friend invited me out for drinks and invited him to join. Which he happily did. I swear the reason why I don’t see any future for the two of us is because he seem to be rather interested in meeting my single eligible girlfriends. Which goes to show that he thinks of me as a great buddy but not girlfriend material. I swear I am so ready to wack him on his head with a baseball bat!!!! ARGH!!!! Yet I have this innate perseverance in me and I believe strongly that I shouldn’t give up till the “fat lady sings”.

Wouldn’t it be easier for me to just give up? I swear I am quite insane. Most girls know the rule of the game: If he is not remotely interested, don’t waste your time. Move on. Why do I pursue? Insanely, I think it is also because I love the “hunt”…and the challenge and sometimes the roller coaster ride!

My year begun with him. The question remains: Will it end with him?